Some Days I Wish For Things Like Loosing This Feeling

 Some days I question my sanity. I question what the fuck am I doing with my life? Oh yeah, nothing. I wake up smudge on eyeliner, go to school, not pay attention and fail everything, draw during classes contrary to taking notes, come back home, blast My Chemical Romance, read, read, read, draw, write, draw s'more, eat two crackers, drink coffee even though it is way late, stay up until dawn, sleep for two hours, and repeat. Exciting? No. I fear for my fate. I will probably fail this year, but I can't help it; I am really depressed and nothing propels me to go and try. It's like I am constantly exhausted, always. I can't decipher why, I just am. I feel weak and honestly the only things I am ever up to do is write, read, drink, or smoke. Other than that, I have nothing that I really do. That's a disappointing thought, and I can't help but to wonder....


                What have I done to help someone else?

I want to be part of something bigger than myself, that way I can't forget about how fucked up I am and instead help someone else. That's what I love doing; helping people. Some days I wish for things, like loosing this empty broken feeling 'cus I don't want to be broken, and I don't want to be empty.

You're the hopelessness to my feelings,

-Mirror Mayhem-