I have been told that I will drown in my tears; so be it. My heart is cascading in sadness. I feel a burning desire to run up to Gerard and shake him, to ask him "What do I do now?" because I don't know. This has shattered my heart. Though I am still happy for them this is one of those moments where you smile through buckets of tears. It is an un-real feeling. I can honestly say that it feels like I lost my father. Though my father isn't here so I guess I wouldn't know.My Chem. was like a father figure in its self. When I was angry or sad they lulled me to sleep.I can feel my hollow heart beat. I had no inspiration, no hopes, no dreams, nothing; until I found MCR. I still have every ounce of respect for them. I wish I could meet them. I cry at night thinking of them, but not in a sad way. I have been broken, stepped on, shoved into walls and lockers, my name is sprawled across the bathroom stall, my eyes have seen things they never should have and memories I shouldn't own are engraved into my dreams. Every night I am in the company of a memory I want to cast away. My dream to be a lead singer of a band only has more drive now. I dare someone to tell me "you can't do it" I dare someone to tell me "you can't make it" One day I will meet MCR, and one day I will be saving lives. Nothing you can say can stop me.
"Oh how wrong we were to think immortality meant never dying"
You're the hand I hold,
-Mirror Mayhem-
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