I don't do my homework. I don't do my schoolwork. I don't do anything at all. It is sad because the reason is as simple as this: I have no motivation. I have nothing to make me care. No one that would care if I failed. My heart is shattering in the weight of this baffling news. I have nothing. No one. I am alone when it comes to this feeling . I am hopeless; no one can motivate me. I am tired of being told of how fucked up I am. Seriously. Dr.FuckFace said this. Well FUCK HIM. I am so physically and emotionally vacant. I am physically and emotionally tired. My body is so slow and agonizingly sleepy, my mind wanders in and out of reality. I lived in a fantasy and now that I can no longer hide beneath it reality is a slap in the face. People are bad; no one cares. You. Are. Alone. That is what reality screams into my distorted face. My mind is exhausted. It is so weird, because it is a different kind of tiredness. It is more than fatigue or exhaustion. It is a painful, hopeless feeling. A broken feeling. I am not fixable; that is a scary realization. I was born, destined to be a broken, hopeless, fuck up, and at least I can say I succeeded.
You're the hand in mine, into your icy blues,
-Mirror Mayhem-
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