I don't like posting more than once in a day, but I'm breaking my own rules which sadly i will probably do a lot.
---So i guess you could say i had a break down. I don't know honestly. I've just fallen so deep into this depression i can barely see. I loose my appetite and my body goes numb. A lot of people don't understand why i am so depressed, that goes to show that a lot of people don't know me. Lets start on my sister. Damn, is she ever gorgeous, seriously, shes stunning! She also used to be my idol until something horrible happened to me, something that took my innocents that had already been stripped thin, and threw it in the garbage. So i didn't see anyone in my family for a good 8 months, and i changed and she didn't and now all we do is argue. I slowly feel my pulsing headache right now. I'm so sick, so numb, so angry, so sad, depressed, confused, suicidal, i feel so insane. My life has turned to insanity. With my grades in the toilet and my mum who i think is bipolar, my gran who is insanely religious and fights me about everything, or my school full of assholes and ignorant pricks. There are a few people there that i actually like and trust. This one girl who i have in my 1 and 7th period, who i sit right next to in both classes. I like her a lot. She has short hair and is actually very pretty. There is a girl with dark long hair and she is tall and always talks about this boy. But even in a crowd full of people i have never felt so alone. My nights are haunting. I am an insomniac and am never able to sleep, but when i do nightmares flood me terrorizing me to no end, I want to end it, i try to stay strong but everyone and everything has a breaking point, and I'm so tired of pretending to not care, pretending to be strong.
Your light to my moon,
-Mirror Mayhem-
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